In Memory Of Four Kittens

About a month and a half ago two of our cats had kittens: over the last two days, four of those kittens have died. We think that one of the mothers brought in a virus and they weren't strong enough to deal with it, one day they were happy and healthy and playing, and the next they died. One was about a month old, while the other three were about a month and a half. It made me very sad, so I decided I would write a poem to honor their memory and post it along with pictures of them. All the pictures were taken on my cell phone so the quality is not the greatest.
This post is in memory of Cheese (two pictures):

Kermit (three pictures):

Husky Startch (three pictures):

And Gizmo (one picture):

Gizmo and Cheese shied away from the camera so I never got as many photos of them. They will all be missed.

Cheese, Kermit, Husky Startch, Gizmo
In memory of my kittens.


It isn’t fair
That you all had to leave
When you acted so healthy.
I let myself get attached
Thinking we were in the clear
And you would stay right here.

Every time
One of you kitten’s die
I feel like my heart’s been broken
You think it would get easier after a while
But it never does.
It always feels like someone’s stabbed me in the chest
And all I can do is cry
And wonder “Why?”

I can’t help but love
Such small creatures who need so much care
I felt so tired all the time
There were so many litters before you
I was so tired of having to repeat the same things over and over
Constantly looking after so many of you
But I hope you know, I still loved you
That never changed
No matter how tired I became.

I held you in my arms
I played with you,
Even after you bit me with those sharp little teeth
I bottle fed you,
When your mothers chose to abandon you
It isn’t fair that after all of that
After I got so attached
That you still died
That I still had to lose my kittens.

A virus came,
And took your lives away
Two of you, I held as you died
Two of you, I never got to say goodbye to
I didn’t even know you two were gone,
Until I went looking for you,
And was told the horrible truth.

I couldn’t stop crying
Because you were all still dying
And there was nothing that I could do
The sickness came and took each of you.

One minute, you were all playing,
The next minute, you were all laying,
Barely able to move
As death took a hold of you.
It’s not right, that such sweet kittens,
Had to have such short lives,
I hope you know you were all very loved
And even though your time here was short,
You’ll forever be in the memory and heart of this girl.

I took so many pictures
Capturing your faces
Because I like capturing memories
Now, I guess, at least I’ll have something
To remind me of you.
You were pampered while in this world,
I have a habit of spoiling my cats
Giving them a lot of attention,
I hope you know,
That when you left,
You left behind a very sad girl.

So to Cheese, and Kermit,
And Husky-Starch, and Gizmo,
I hope you four were happy while in this life
You will be missed,
So sleep well,
My dear sweet kittens.

Took My Breath Away

It took me a while,
But I finally realized I was madly in love with you;
It took me a while,
But I finally had the nerve to tell you the truth
I couldn't think of the right words to tell you
Nothing smart or intelligent
All I could say,
Was you took my breath away.

Spending every moment in your company
I cannot express the joy it would bring me
I cannot buy you cars,
But I would give you the stars
If only I were able.
Until then, all I can truly say,
Is you took my breath away.

You say you love me too
And the happiness it blooms
We may not be together forever
How I would like it if we were...
All I know for certain
Is that for now you are my world
And even if we should somehow part
Know that once you had my heart
Forever, you'll be able to say,
That you took my breath away.

Holidays In The Past

My first post! I’ll start by stating this blog is a place to post my poetry; I am currently writing my second poetry book.

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Holidays In The Past
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It feels like you’re near to me,
It feels like you’re here with me,
But when I look around,
No one is there.
I’m alone, in a crowd of familiar faces.
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When you went away,
The world turned into gray.
The summer didn’t seem as hot
And the holidays weren’t as bright.
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When you went away,
The world went into gray.
Everything had changed
Yet everything stayed the same.
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I didn’t realize how much you meant,
Until the day I didn’t have anymore time to spend with you.
It’s the littlest things I always miss
Like a smile, that now I’ll never see again
I should have said “I love you” more
That you were the best Grandma in the world.
Somehow, I never knew
All the things you used to do
Until you were no longer around to do them.
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When you went away,
The world turned into gray.
The summer didn’t seem as hot
And the holidays weren’t as bright.
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When you went away,
The world went into gray.
Everything had changed,
Yet the world stayed the same.
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The earth kept turning,
The sun kept burning,
The stars still shined,
The moon still came out at night,
But nothing was the same,
After you went away.